now that i have internet, i was looking at a lot of my old stuff... i was a confused fucked up kid.. =( well. i have to say i changed a lot for the better in 2 years.. im still working for mastronardi produce. i baught a house & a car. so i can always have a roof over my head & a place i can call home. boys... *rolls eyes* they come & go. i cant beleive how many guys names are on my xanga. haha i fell in & outta puppy love a lot back then haha well now i know what real love is, or at least i have a good idea hehe. there's one guy on here i'd still talk to & i think about a lot. i miss him. i really do. the only friend i had when i had nothing. i think i screwed that one up. i really think he was the one for me. =( hopefully if you read this, you should get a hold of me so i can talk to you.. i couldnt beleive how much of an angry person i was back then. well, let me tell you how i am now. i've become a push-over i guess. i am laid back & kept to myself. i love to listen to music still but my favorite bands have changed. i take advantage of all the little things life has to offer & i thank god for it everyday. my friends have changed some too over the years, so i hang out with a selected few, only the ones i can trust with my credit card which is only like 3. haha. i love my friends to death, they've looked out for me & they know i will always look out for them. i enjoy the good times. drinking + bonfire, just talking about anything & everything. i love you guys. i think back then & i remember the painful days... i regret a lot of things i've done in my life. i apologize for the hearts broken during all this. would i change it if i could go back? no, because i wouldnt have met some amazing people & i have learned a lot. i grew up fast, i'm 22yrs old with a house! how many people can say that i have a good head on my shoulders now. so i can only look forward now. i may be dry cash sometimes, but i'd rather be broke & happy than rich & miserable. right now im pretty happy with my life, i've been thru some shit so this last year has been a cake-walk. it could be better but i dont care, im pretty content. i'll be shocked if people read this to see how im doing. please comment. i would love to hear from you. -AnDReA HoLLoWaY =) |